June 4

Well, good morning. I haven't blogged for a while again. I am maintaining at 165 lbs. Everyone keeps telling me to stop losing or I will look anorexic. I'm cool, I haven't lost any weight for a while, I think 165 is just fine or maybe 163, but definitely not under 160.
I go jogging 3 times a week, 40-45 minutes at a time and I love it. I have to use my willpower to stop myself on rest days. Today is one of my rest days and I feel antsy, cannot wait until tomorrow so I can run again.

And about my menu. In addition to weighing and measuring my portions I started counting calories. Just to find out how many calories I eat daily. In my little head I think that I should NOT eat under 2000 kcal per day. I went to some "calories-burned" websites and every single one of them tells me that at my current activity level some days (when I run 45 min. and work retail for 8 hrs) I could be burning almost 3000 a day. And at least 2500 on regular days.
So I am becoming more flexible with my food plan. For example 4 oz of shrimp compared to 4 of of fatty hamburger is a HUGE difference in calories. When I eat shrimp or chicken breast, I either eat 5-6 oz (instead of 4 oz) or add a tablespoon of oil and count the calories. And I eat quite freely high-fat meats (like spare ribs or hamburger patty or italian sausage). Not every meal, but at least once a day.
I've decided that if some days I stay under 2000 I will make it up with eating some fat (oil, fatty meats, nuts) and not carbs. So far it has worked for me.

My constant hunger last 2 months was clearly coming from NOT eating enough calories (although I did the KS plan as prescribed).

I've been feeling much better and happier lately. If I can keep it that way I'll be fine.
As it's said "Being fat is hard, losing weight is hard, maintaining is hard, you choose YOUR hard".

Maintaining truly IS hard, I almost got scared because I thought, it is TOO hard, I cannot do it. I cannot live in such hunger for extended period of time (REST OF MY LIFE!). All I think is how hungry I am.

But now at 2000 calories a day I think I can do it just fine.